I… I don’t know why I let this one little thing bother me. Maybe because everything I do in a day is literally revolved around you whether you’re aware of it or not.. most likely not. But still. And I have all this angst and emotion inside of me that I just don’t know what to do with. And I’ve felt this way before and I don’t know what makes my situation any different then the one before. And it all sucks. Because I really do like you, really. And I do think we could be great together. But if I look at the facts, my days with you are numbered, and you could have something else or someone else in mind. And it kills me. Because I’ll never know for sure if there was ever something between us. And if I ever ask, I want it to be a yes and not just a “let’s be friends” ..
Friendzoned… ugh
I want to tell you. I mean, I want to tell you exactly how I feel. But in doing so, I run the risk of ruining our friendship, making things awkward, sounding like an idiot, and oh there’s just so much at stake here. But I just hope that maybe I can tell you one day. Don’t make me the crazy one here. Were we or were we not connecting that night? Because I sure thought we were. I wish I would’ve just straight up and asked you but I was in a sort of trance. This disbeliefe that you were actually there and it was just you and me, talking. I feel so utterly cheesy when I think of you. I feel like such a typical teenage girl with a crush on her friend. Gee, where have we heard that story before? I just want to be sure of your feelings. I want to be sure that I’m not putting myself out there just to be rejected. I want you. I want us to happen. I do so so so so soo very much. And I’m waiting for you to bring him up again so I can finally just spit it out.
You know who I really like? I’ll let you figure that out..
